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"Baby Series 3"Written By: Karina Rating: PG Spoilers: None Disclaimer: I don’t own Gundam Wing or the Characters from the series but the baby is mine. Pairing: Wu Fei + Milliardo Notes: Challenge 176. Baby Series 3 #302. Takes place after The Axe Falls. Many thanks to ShenLong for her work betaing
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It Makes Me Afraid "You need to have more confidence in yourself. To rule others one must first rule oneself." "It is not something I have wanted." "It has come to you because there is no one else. I am much the same. We are free to walk away if we do not mind watching the consequences that result. I am not so dissatisfied that I do not see Sanc has progressed beneath my hand. I am, somehow, not King in name only. I have had influence and Sanc is much improved because of it. But this is only the beginning. I must have confidence in myself, understand that I can yet be of use to those who can do little to influence the world." "Two hundred and thirty three. It is far less than the population of Sanc, but if they will have me I will be responsible for their lives. It will be I who shapes the world around them and it is merely blood and bone that dictates my place. It is no skill of mine that stands me at their head, merely the compound components of a human body passed down from my ancestors. Genetics says I am their superior, nothing more. I could be the worst thing to happen to them. The final nail in the coffin." "Do you not think others have not already had these thoughts? I happen to agree with you. As individuals they choose to come to Sanc, to become again `Clan'. What form this remade Clan takes, its hierarchy, is yet to be determined. They have accepted your bloodline, but that does not necessarily mean they will accept you. Do you want them to refuse you?" There it was. The question. Did he want the survivors who had come to his call to reject him? Most had not found a place for themselves in the intervening years since their colony's destruction. They had wandered, never settling in one place with any conviction; never having confidence in themselves, he suspected. Never happy with the ways of the other Clans in the L5 cluster. A few had found a place for themselves, but the majority had come to Sanc. "What does it say for the confidence my people have in themselves that they could not begin again?" There was no answer from the blonde and he did not dare look to see the expression that might cloud that handsome face. Wu Fei was disappointed in himself, the question was a reflection of his own fears, his own failings. How many years had it taken him to come to the point where he now stood? "My apologies. I did not like to consider myself a coward in the folly of my youth. I was a Gundam pilot. I screamed insults at the Elders and made promises I could not keep… and they destroyed so many lives. So much history. It makes me afraid of what I might do." ~ * ~ |
